i'm sorry i can't use it anymore. i really treasured what u gave me and it really meant something to me, seriously. But now... i just don't dare to see you anymore... its not that i don't have the guts... i just feel really really very sorry... i don't dare to tell it to you... because i don't want u to get the impression that i didn't cherish everything u ever gave and done for me... i'm really really sorry...
this is for her...i wrote a short one yesterday cos i was too tired and sleepy but i managed to squeeze out some energy... here's what i actually want to tell you but too draggy to say it to u...
You need to understand that this WAS and IS a growing experience. I'm not making it look like its not important or what, but u told me this is the first time u experience such an effed up asshole. everyone has to have a first and very few and far between are the firsts of the lasts. Prolly why this happened to u is because the qualities u had, he saw them as a weak spot. But i think there's nothing wrong with you, being gullible, innocent, young and soft-hearted. If you think that they're ur weak points, then turn it around into a positive manner and be trusting, sincere, heart-felt, and caring. Those are not negative characteristics at all. let me tell you, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU! i'll be there for you if/when/whenever you need a shoulder. You can do anything you want, say anything you want to me and i'll hear you out. or maybe some good old fashioned tears, i don't mind. You can trust me with everything. Even though you may not see it now, but you will grow and will continue to grow from this crisis. What we see as problems in life at an early age form the building blocks of who we are later on. This life that you're leading right now is going to make some amazing, handsome, caring, and understanding guy fall that much more in love with you when the timing is right. Just take it slow from now on, and really understand who a person is before getting in too deep. It takes awhile...to know the good and BAD side of a person. If u ever wanna talk, i'll forever listen with big ears!
