I thought i could put u people behind me, but no ur shadows or should i say ur unsolved problems come knockin on my NEW door, MY NEW LIFE. because of one stupid thing u did i have to pay for it is it? u know when people say blood is thicker than water, they mean u can never deny that they're you and you're them. and i hate that fact. my fact is I AM NOT THEM. still, people will always relate u to them. now u guys, u gave me hope and faith when i thought i didn't belong anywhere. dammit when i'm not around, when u know or rather when u think i'm not there or i'm not listening, u talk behind my back and say things and ask questions and hve doubts about me... FCUKING ask me if u wanna know what i think or tell me what ur thinking, don't let me find out. now i have to think of how to avoid u and whether to go back there. maybe it was too early for me to even call it home.

i know i wasn't such a good kid, but isn't it enough already. i can't take any of this anymore. if u call this a test, i'm gonna fail this soon, real soon.